Fragile
Stage2: Sense and Persistence Management (THESIS)
Holy whatever!!! It’s my group 6th Thesis Proposal! And freak we’re rejected again! Keep in mind that thesis is every college student’s ticket to graduation. Ticket to be in the official graduation list. Ticket to be my family’s pride. Ticket for the real world. But I am losing that ticket..6th Thesis Proposal!?
How come they rejected our proposals? It makes me miserable and hopeless. 6ht Thesis Proposal?! How many thesis proposals they are waiting for? 7th,8th,9th,10th? Bullsh*t! When we will begin our Chapter 1? When?
Make some point.
And when we will stop creating DFD and ERD?
But hey! We need to work on for our 7th Thesis Proposal..remember?
So it’s gonna be a full blast of thingkings and patience. We must pack our things and attend mass at Quiapo or any holy churches to be approve. Pray to all saints and even nature’s god and godess. Hey! Is there any patron saint for Thesis or any god of Thesis. I wish to talk to them and make wishes. Offer anything for them to whisper positive responces to our thesis adviser, faculty panel, software chairwoman, and college dean. Wish they were…(Searching in Yahoo!..)…(Result: No match found!)
Deep breath. Optimistically, we can make it!
I really want to be in the graduation stage receiving the “Best Thesis Award” not the “Grand Slam Rejected Thesis Award”..Hope we can make it!
Future will be define soon..
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Stage1: Anger Management (THESIS)
One part of college life that you must not miss is thesis. Yet a heart-breaking and head-shaking moment..It’s one hell part of what we called process..Process that can make us stronger,tougher,smarter and wiser. Thesis is like a television series. Packed with action ( Physical moments in photo-copying, sleepless nights, sleepless mornings, sleepless weekends and many more..), drama ( If your proposals are rejected by your panel), comedy ( If everyone pass and you’re just left in the corner and failed..hehhehe..) and many more.
But as of this moment, it is just starting. So I am expecting for more. More papers, more payments, more wars, more wasted minds, more research, more “don’t care” moments..MORE!!
But what else breaks my heart today? When someone, when all are discouraging you to pursue it. Yip! They are my detractors! Haiyz..
What kind of guts they had? What kind of brains they have? As if we are close? As if they have the rights to reject? As if he is the greatest programmer in the universe? As if he is one my judging panel? Who the hell?!! Crack his jokes! You’re helpless! Pathetic!
Stage1: Anger Management
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Why January 16?
January 16 is a very significant date for me. I rejoice this event with memories I will hold forever. Nostalgia of old friends. Rendezvous of different scenarios of personalities i loved and hated.
January 16, 1953. My father’s birthday. I am very blessed! Having a father like him. Never be replaced. I love my Tatay! Blessed with sense of humor and sense of responsibility. I am very lucky to have him.
January 16, 1988. Michelle Prado’s birthday. She was the President of the Supreme Student Government in my Highschool. While I was the Peace Officer at that time. Military at heart. She opened my political carreer.
January 16, 1989. Maverick Dandoy’s birthday. My ex’s bestfriend. I always compare him to “Great Wall of China”. Why? Because in every quarrel he was there to blocked those hatred ways of us. I miss him alot!
January 16, 1990. John Mark Retardo’s birthday. One of my best buddy in highschool. He made me insensitive. After months of arguments. We separated ways and never talk again. But after all, text messaging made us realized what happened and maturity just blown up our minds.
January 16, 2008. A serious conversation with Mark Alvin Vidal. Thought we will lose him. After this exchange, I realized that I am very immature and very selfish. Yip! I was “praning” at that moment. But I am happy that it all happened to me. I trust and know him even more.
Counting more January 16…ÜÜÜ
Officially Yours..Ü
I am just surfing the net for new single that will hit the town..A song that everyone will sing to it..But apparently a song from Craig David’s last album - “Trust Me” released last November of 2008 caught my attention..Craig David is a popular R&B singer from UK..And he really gain weight and muscles..hehhe..I really love him for the first place..I used to listen to his songs but not in a loop..( like right now..) I am so addicted to this song..David’s voice is truly magical for me..I love the words of this song..
And I can say that this is the song of my moment..Felt like I let go of someone that I loved and still loving..but still into him..Every words are simply now of me..Haiyz..I love it! I am officially and unconditionally yours! Ü
Officially Yours
By Craig David
Thinkin’ how the story goes
You’re helpless and I’m wishin’
Put the film inside my mind
But there’s a big scene that I’m missin’
As I re-read my lines
I think I said this, I should’ve said that
Did you edit me out of your mind
‘Cos in a flash you had disappeared, gone
Before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Maybe I should risk it all and state
That I’m officially going on the record
To say I’m in love with you
I’m officially everything you hope that I would be
This time I’ll tell the truth
I’m officially wrong I know
For letting you go the way I did
Unconditionally more than I ever was before
I’m officially yours
Travellin’ down this road again
Gotta make a few decisions
Don’t want you to feel this hurt again
That’s why I’m hopin’ that you’ll listen
If you let me press rewind
I’ll rehearse every word I should have said
‘Cos girl I’m ready to make things right
Here on this stage so we can move on
And before the curtain falls
And we act this out again
Missin’ pieces I’ll resolve so stay
Things I should have said
Like I appreciate the time that I spend with you
Inspire me with the smile I put on your pretty face
My world comes alive, now I know
This time I’m not letting go
‘Cos I’m officially yours
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TYRA!!!
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Snobbish or Just Don't Care At All?
It’s a pretty little thing that makes me think..Yip! I don’t know why..
Just this morning one of my girlfriend told me that someone likes (?) me..When she said that I was not a bit happy nor upset..It’s just a usual feeling..Just like a simple exchange of words from my girlfriend..I had feeling since then..but I don’t have any proof and I don’t want to prove it too..Not just because that I don’t want to..but just because of expecting too much..Of course, no one wanted to be hurt..No one wanted to shed tears..And I am also not a kind of girl who just want to make love or flirt to someone with any reasons..I hate to initiate cause I am afraid of being rejected..I hesitated cause I don’t want to look like any b*tch around..I hate it..I hate it..And even hated it more..Though I am real fighter..love makes me weak..Call me anxious..I don’t want to be too close for comfort..Call me whatever you wanted..I’m afraid to be hurt.. ( Sounds like I am not the one who is writing this..)
As they said, If you will just be afraid when you will be happy and contented? When you will fight your fears? When you will be loved? When you will experience true love? When you will fight for it? When you will fight for him?
Yet it seems exaggerated..This is what I feel right now..
After many hours..It sink in to me ( Late reaction! )
What if he likes me? Will it make a great impact? Will it change my world? Will it make me happy or contented? Will it make me change the way I treated him? Will I also like him? Or will I fall for him?
Questions that I can’t answer for now..
I can’t giggle just for knowing that..It s*cks! I don’t want to assume..I don’t want to expect for something to happen.. ( See how I am frightened? )
And what the hell he called me a snobbish one? Hey! I am not! Yet it looks like! But it’s just my curve eyebrows ( I don’t shave it! I am blessed with it! ) , the way I frankly talked..the way I observed things around me..And make ‘pintas’ to others..I am not proud or boastful..I just don’t care about others business..I ignore things that I can’t relate to, I can’t handle or I can’t stand to..Or even things that can’t enhance my abilities and capabilities..I ignore those persons that I know just wanted to make fond of me without any good reasons..I ignore those persons that I can’t make my life worthy..I ignore those persons who can’t make me happy and will just give me aches..You can know me better!
Am I snobbish or I just don’t care it at all?
Anyone can approach me..I can smile and not frown to everyone..I can also expresses what I feel..I am also a human..I know who are unreal to me..I know who appreciated me..
So stop calling me SUPLADA!!!
You don’t know the real me.
Better know me first. ( I won’t bite you! )
If you like me..Approach me then..
It’s up to you! I don’t want to continue no more!
i felt so selfish..
how could this guy said that we are best of friends..
how could this guy blunt that we are made of each other and how many problems we’ve been through..
know that i am NOT beside him..
i felt so selfish..
i am..
insentive for the guy
who treat me special and one of the
best..
how could my bestfriend is?
I AM SORRY..for the times i am not with you..for the times i can’t tap your shoulders to boost your confidence..for the times i can’t laugh with you when your heart is pain..for the times i can’t give you my opinions and advices..for the times i can’t remind you what is wrong or what is right..and for the times i can’t cry with you and for not saying “ano babanatan ko n ba yung gumawa sayo nun?!!!”…I AM SORRY…
i felt so worhtless..
i felt so undeserving for the title
BESTFRIEND..
emails and text messages are
not enough..
i hate it..
i don’t know how to end this..
i am sorry…sorry..
i will make things
work out..hopefully..
it s*cks to be
numb..
it s*cks when people closes
to your heart will also be engage
from your troubles..
thanks for reading my message
I AM SORRY..
If I Were A Boy..
If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
Cause they stick up for me
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone
I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she'd be faithful,
Waiting for me to come home, to come home.
If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake,
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong
But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, ohhhh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man
You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy
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thanks for making me special Ü
Not just a hayskool klasmeyt or a hayskool friend—a diary and a helping hand,,, having a classic character without any pretentions, I will always identify her as one of the few best friends of mine in this little space called earth…
During hayskool we are always together, we talk, we laugh, we sing, but oh well, we don’t dance!!!!^^ We share a lot of commons, we both love the legendary eraserheads, our favorite love songs are from PNE, we don’t care what the clock says, we just love each other’s company, we cried together, we lied together, we live together (literalin mu,,, suntok k skin….) and might as well die together!!!(Bad Boys!!! Ahahaha)
I just hope that even though there came a time that we don’t talk, that our communication ceased, our friendship, the spirit of our friendship last till the end, I cant give much… I don’t and I cant promise anything but I am asking you to trust me, cause ill try hard not to let you down,,, ill be there whenever I’m free (hehehehe) and ill be honest just as you are to me…
enzo
.,a p0st from my bestfriends’ blog..
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Just Stand Up!
Beyoncé:
The heart is stronger
Than you think
It's like it can go
Through anything
And even when you think
It can't it finds a way
To still push on
Though
Carrie Underwood:
Sometimes
You want to run away
Ain't got the patience
For the pain
And if you
Don't believe it
Look into
Your heart
The beat goes on
Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that
Rihanna/Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever
Rihanna:
If you fall
Dust it off
Don't let up
Sheryl Crow:
Don't you know
You can go
Be your own miracle
Beyoncé:
You need to know
Chorus (Sheryl Crow):
If the mind
Keeps thinking
You've had enough
But the heart
Keeps telling you
Don't give up
Sheryl Crow/Beyoncé:
Who are we to be
Questioning
Wondering what is what
Don't give up
Through it all
Just stand up
Fergie:
It's like
We all have better days
Problems getting all up
In your face
Leona Lewis:
Just because
You go through it
Fergie:
Don't mean it got
To take control, no
Leona Lewis:
You ain't gotta find
No hiding place
Keyshia Cole:
Because the heart
Can beat the hate
Leona Lewis:
Don't wanna
Let your mind
Keep playin' you
Keyshia Cole:
And sayin' you
Can't go on
Rihanna:
I'm tellin' you that
Miley Cyrus:
Things get better
Through whatever
Rihanna:
If you fall
Miley Cyrus:
Dust if off
Don't let up
LeAnn Rimes:
Don't you know you
Natasha Bedingfield:
Can go
LeAnn Rimes:
Be your own
Natasha Bedingfield:
Miracle
Carrie Underwood:
You need to know
(Chorus-All)
Mary J. Blige:
You don't gotta be
A prisoner
In your mind
Ciara:
If you fall
Dust it off
Mary J. Blige:
You can live your life
Rihanna/Carrie Underwood:
Yeah
Mary J. Blige:
Let your heart
Be your guide
Rihanna/Carrie:
Yeah, yeah, yeah
Mariah Carey:
And you will know
That you're good
If you trust in the good
Ashanti:
Everything
Will be alright, yeah
Light up the dark
If you follow your heart
Mary J. Blige:
And it will get better
Mariah Carey:
Through whatever
(Chorus All)
Fergie:
You got it in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Find it within
You got in now
Find it within now
You got in you
Ffind it within
Find it within you
Find it within
.,love the collaboration!..
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